I know how I act about it all.
like its so easy.
like i'm having the time of my life
like everything is better than ever
and sometimes it is.
God is more prominent in my life than ever
and i can feel him working
so i try to remember that i 'm not alone
and its not my burden to bear.
it works a lot of the time
then there are nights like tonight.
when i just want to give up.
to go back to the easier lifestyle
the one where i had so many friends.
and when i walked down the halls
it was filled with familliar faces
and people cared about me.
they apreciated me.
they knew who i was
and where i came from
what i liked to do
and what my favorite book was
they knew the things that drove me insane
like stickers
and weird textures
and gum
especially the fruity kind
its so exhausting.
trying so hard
outting every ounce into friendships
and feeling like i'm getting no where.
then hatty comes along.
makes friends immediately.
has plans her first weekend.
and her second.
and her third.
and rubs it in my face.
haha. no one likes you.
now that i have it written down, i am done.
i'm lifting this all up to God.
because you will fight my battles for me.
as long as i trust in you.
thank you.
