That's life

I seriously am only writing this because no one reads this blog.
so if you happen to be reading it and don't feel like being offended,
stop reading.
i know you won't.

I am in Alabama.
for MY WHOLE spring break.
which a month ago, would have been my ideal week.
a month ago.
not now.

truth is..
I HATE IT HERE.
i was SOOO close to staying with a friend in Nashville.
the only reason i came back was because i haven't seen my sister
in like three weeks.
otherwise... i would not be here.

honestly,
i can't stand my old friends.
or a lot of them.
some of them (like the only one reading this) are okay,
because they understand why i wouldn't want to be here
that i have a life
and i didn't want this anymore than they did,
but that's life.
sucks.

the thing is,
for all my friends, they have the same life as they did before i moved,
the only difference, is that i'm not there.
so it's notice-able that i'm missing
for me, i started a whole new life
that they don't fit into..
so it's harder for me to miss them.

i'm not saying i don't miss any of them..
because i honestly do!
i reallyreallyreallyreally still love them.
it just gets annoying when they keep bugging me about when i'm coming.
excuse me.
i didn't realize my purpose in life was to make you happy.

i feel bad about saying this stuff...
it really doesn't sound like me.

i have friends though.
in brentwood..
that i could be hanging out with.
because we all know
that it is much healthier
for me to let go of my life here.
as much as that sucks.
that's life.

and the worst part about it is that
I'm missing bible study.
which is the absolute highlight(s) of my week!
it keeps me SANE.
and stops me from writing ugly blog posts
like right now.

iwannagohome.
but,
that's life.